discourse
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discourse is really tiring
I know. real bold thing to say. fighting over useless shit on the internet has been a staple since usenet, and I'm sure people like godwin also were tired of it back then
I try to avoid discourse whenever I can. I rarely encountered it on my timeline when on twitter, and still rarely encounter Discourse:tm: on my fediverse timeline. but even then, it takes one person posting a link to a hyper-condensed 240 character tweet in a friend group I'm in before the chat has a book's worth of pages on everyone's individual opinion that differs in slightly different ways, yet all reinforcing their thoughts even more about a topic I never have the energy to truly discuss
it's not like I don't have opinions. I do, and on most discourse topics, I want to believe that my opinions come from my own morals and personal thoughts, rather than trying to parrot the views of another. I hope so
I just never have the energy to discuss that kind of thing. my mouth screams to throw my hat in the ring--the two cents of my opinion on the chat, yet my brain never wants to. I'm usually simultaneously in places and circles on opposite sides of internal subculture wars, wars on topics that mean nothing in the grand scheme of things
it's just tiring. I bite my tongue and hold back on voicing my opinion, because I know that in the end, nobody will change their mind--that's just how it is. I could have a friend group start looking at me weird by me not adequately explaining my very complex thoughts on meaningless, yet complex topics clearly through text, because that is also hard
I'd rather just stay away and not deal with it all. whatever